As I was doing some reading I ran across an article where a small group leader (Mark Oestreicher) challenged his middle schoolers to think about what kind of man they want to be. If they died when they were 32 what would they want people to say about them and their character?” My first thought was I am 31 coming up on 32 so that would mean I have less than a year to live if I died at 32. What would I want people to say about me? What would I want my life to be about? I would want them to see that I love God with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength. That I truly desire to live the great commission out in my life. That I am a man of character, integrity, and love. I know that if I was dying in less than a year I would not care so much about what others say about me, I would truly grasp the concept that I will never make everyone happy, and that I would not hold back on sharing the gospel with those that are around me. I just think knowing that would add an urgency to my life that many times is filled with the status quo, jumping through hoops, monotonous things that need to be done. I think I would get rid of a lot of stuff that I have…now if you have been to my apartment you know I don’t have much as it is but I would have less. Now as I contemplate these things I realize I should have this urgency because we are not promised tomorrow. I have no idea how long I will live and when my time will come so I need this urgency. Time goes by fast and I want my life to be one that is truly alive. I guess I am trying to figure out how my life would look and what I would need to do to make that happen in the midst of many who are breathing but are not really alive. I don’t just want to breathe but I want my life to have urgency and I want to feel alive. What about you? What do you want your life to be about?